Beloved
Beloved......This is a hard word for me. Yesterday was Valentine's Day, a day for lovers. Hard for me because my beloved is in heaven now. Last year, my first Valentine's day with out him, was hard in a different way, everything was still new so the hurt was much more raw. This year, it was different, I grieved the little things. My honey was a romantic at heart and always picked the most beautiful cards and wrote me beautiful lines of love. I miss that.
The other thing that was hard was that I wanted to express my sorrow, but didn't want to be a downer for others. How do I express myself without looking like I'm asking for sympathy? A simple heart on my honey's still active Facebook page was what I chose.
My son and I also made it a special day with a Dairy Queen date! My evening ended with suprise flowers and chocolates from an amazing couple at my church. God showed me I was HIS beloved and He sees my heart and He knew I needed a little extra love yesterday.
Today I'm joining Lisa-Jo for 5 Minute Friday.......Here's the deal:
1. Write for 5 minutes flat with no editing, tweaking or self critiquing.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in {www.lisajobaker.com}.
3. Go and tell the person who linked up before you what their words meant to you. Every writer longs to feel heard.
Join in and be blessed!!!!
Vicki, I couldn't imagine this sadness on a day created for lovers. The small heart on his FB profile made my eyes overflow for you... glad that you got some time with your boy and that sweet couple from church loved on you too! Visiting from FMF!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words. I am blessed!
DeleteVicki, I'm glad you are God's beloved. Visiting from FMF.
ReplyDeleteVicki, this is SO beautiful! I'm so blessed that I am getting to know you and get to see God loving you! :)
ReplyDeleteI loved that your church family provided flowers and good wishes. How thoughtful.
ReplyDeleteYou know... my husband passed away 6 six years ago and since have dated and fell in love with an old friend. This new man in my life taught me what Valentine's Day was really all about. He dropped me 2 years ago and I have yet to recover. No one realizes how upsetting Valentine's Day is to a lot of us. So... I bake cakes and eat my way through it... with friends and family.
How sweet of your son to make a date for you! How sensitive and caring he sounds!
ReplyDeleteWhat a joy to know your your church family also jumped in to offer comfort. Thank you for being so transparent with your story.
He really is the best. :)
DeleteVicki, it really blessed me to read of your church family remembering your sorrow and bringing you gifts. I think of you each time I see your blog on my sidebar, and I pray. I put it there to remember that here is one of God's precious children, hurting. And it's always such a blessing to visit here! I see through your words how He is providing spiritually, and I pray many more people will remember your sorrow and become Jesus in the flesh. I would never assume you were looking for sympathy...keep on expressing. Love to you this weekend!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Christine. :)
DeleteVickichka, I forgot how beautifully you write :) Your words draw me in. I had to go back and read all your posts! Love that you are so open and the Bible verses you pick are so meaningful. Love you!!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Sarah! :) Love you too! Seeing "Vickichka" has me smiling!
DeleteHi Vicki! I have just nominated you for a Liebster Award. If you want you can read about it here http://weliveinspired.com/inspiration-station/liebster-award/
ReplyDeleteor just take a look at the email from my blog that will come out in the morning. Congrats! :)
I was a goof and forgot to create 5 new questions. I just now created your 5 questions and it's updated on the blog (but I am not sure if it will show in the email-which is why I am letting you know ;) )
DeleteOh, Vicki. Just wanted to tell you how your comment about Marilyn put tears in my eyes. I am so thankful she is receiving your love and that you get to receive hers. It is such a wonderful journey, loving these kids! Praise God!
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